Book Description

Walk in my shoes as a Sister in a religious order in the United States from 1955-78. Do what I did. Feel what I felt. Live the life I lived in utmost secrecy. Pats incredible story takes readers on a terrifying journey through 22 years of convent life in 20th century America. Promised to God when she was dying at age 3, she eventually enters a Catholic order of women where she is controlled by rigid rules and must wear a cumbersome 17th century habit looking like a flying nun. During 3 years of formation she is stripped of her own identity and forced into a mold. She must give up the family she loves, while her Superiors squash her passion for art, music, and nature. She must live under vows that require blind obedience, no pay for her work, and untainted celibacy. All of these sacrifices are demanded in Gods all-justifying Name. Leaving the convent would be turning her back on God and risking eternal damnation, Superiors say. After reading Pats true story, readers are faced with a question: Was Pat, and thousands of other women like her, abused by the very religion they loved? Emmy-award winning screenwriter and one of Pats mentors, Vickie Patik, says, THE TEARS I COULDNT CRY is a triumph of the human spirit and an inspiration to anyone who is working up the courage to question cherished beliefs and seek closure through honest reflection and self-healing. Barnaby Conrad, co-founder of the Santa Barbara Writers Conference and its co-director for 33 years says that Pat has written her story that is terrifying and beautiful and VERY moving.