The Suicidal God


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The two gods, the Lord of Salvation and the Prince of Dusk, have been warring with one another for ten thousand years, pitting their followers against one another in a constant struggle for dominance. Every five hundred years they are reborn into flesh forms to walk among their followers, and between rebirths communicate to their priests through the Eye. However, this rebirth, the god of the elves, humans, and dwarves is missing, while the underbeings and the Dusk Prince ready their attack. When an undercover dragon tells an unsuspecting young woman named Rynna that she is the reincarnation of the Lord, the two set off to the capital city to help save their people. However, in the absence of any memories of past lives or supernatural abilities, Rynna has only the dragon's assurances that she is who and what he claims her to be. More ominously, a strange disease has plagued Rynna since her childhood, one of continually and inexplicably trying to take her own life. Leaving behind a murdered mother, angry groups of suspicious countrymen, and all her belongings, Rynna must learn to master her own doubts and fears, all the while avoiding capture by the enemy so that she can be the leader her people need.




I Love Jesus, But I Want to Die


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A compassionate, shame-free guide for your darkest days “A one-of-a-kind book . . . to read for yourself or give to a struggling friend or loved one without the fear that depression and suicidal thoughts will be minimized, medicalized or over-spiritualized.”—Kay Warren, cofounder of Saddleback Church What happens when loving Jesus doesn’t cure you of depression, anxiety, or suicidal thoughts? You might be crushed by shame over your mental illness, only to be told by well-meaning Christians to “choose joy” and “pray more.” So you beg God to take away the pain, but nothing eases the ache inside. As darkness lingers and color drains from your world, you’re left wondering if God has abandoned you. You just want a way out. But there’s hope. In I Love Jesus, But I Want to Die, Sarah J. Robinson offers a healthy, practical, and shame-free guide for Christians struggling with mental illness. With unflinching honesty, Sarah shares her story of battling depression and fighting to stay alive despite toxic theology that made her afraid to seek help outside the church. Pairing her own story with scriptural insights, mental health research, and simple practices, Sarah helps you reconnect with the God who is present in our deepest anguish and discover that you are worth everything it takes to get better. Beautifully written and full of hard-won wisdom, I Love Jesus, But I Want to Die offers a path toward a rich, hope-filled life in Christ, even when healing doesn’t look like what you expect.




Fear Gone Wild


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A pastor's wife's shattering yet ultimately hopeful story of her husband's death by suicide, her journey to understand mental illness, and the light she found in the darkness. On August 25, 2018, Kayla Stoecklein lost her husband, Andrew--megachurch pastor of Inland Hills Church in Chino, California--to suicide. In the wake of the tragedy, she embarked on a brave journey to better understand his harrowing battle with mental illness and, ultimately, to overcome the stigma of suicide. Fear Gone Wild is her intimate account of all that led to that tragic day, including her husband's panic attacks and debilitating bouts of anxiety and depression. Despite their deep faith in God and the countless prayers of many believers, Andrew was never healed of his illness. Turning to Scripture for answers, she discovered that God uses wilderness experiences to prepare His children--including Jesus--for his greater purpose and to work miracles inside our souls. With a clear-eyed acknowledgment of how misguided and misinformed she was about mental illness, Kayla Stoecklein shares her story in hopes that anyone walking through the wilderness of mental illness will be better equipped for the journey and will learn to put their hope in Jesus through it all.




Where Is God in All the Suffering?


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Suffering and evil affect us all, both at a general level, as we look at a world filled with injustice, natural disasters and poverty, and at a personal level, as we experience grief, pain and unfairness. And how we think about and process the reality of pain is at the heart of why many people reject God. Dr. Amy Orr-Ewing is no stranger to pain and gives a heartfelt yet academically rigorous examination of how different belief systems deal with the problem of pain. She explains the unique answer that is found in Christ and how he can give us hope in the reality of suffering. This empathetic, easy-to-read and powerful evangelistic book is good for both unbelievers and believers alike. It will help those hoping to answer one of life’s biggest questions as well as those who are either suffering personally or comforting others.




Spectacular Sins


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John Piper poignantly shares what God wants us to know about his sovereignty and Christ's supremacy when we encounter sin or tragedy.




Glorious Weakness


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As a girl, Alia Joy came face to face with weakness, poverty, and loss in ways that made her doubt God was good. There were times when it felt as if God had abandoned her. What she didn't realize then was that God was always there, calling her to abandon herself. In this deeply personal exploration of what it means to be "poor in spirit," Joy challenges our cultural proclivity to "pull ourselves up by our own bootstraps." She calls on readers to embrace true vulnerability and authenticity with God and with one another, showing how weakness does not disqualify us from inclusion in the kingdom of God--instead, it is our very invitation to enter in. Anyone who has struggled with feeling inadequate, disillusioned, or just too broken will find hope. This message is an antidote to despair, helping readers reclaim the ways God is good, even when life is anything but.




Suicidal Christians


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An explosive autobiographical self help book offering Bible based practical advice to anyone suffering from depression, abuse, stress, addiction, chronic pain, PTSD, low self esteem and relationship difficulties. Not only for people contemplating suicide but for anyone struggling and for those who counsel them.




The Savage God


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'To write about suicide . to transform the subject into something beautiful - this is the foreboding task that Alvarez set for himself . he has succeeded.' The New York Times




The Suicidal Christian:Overcoming The Enemies Tactics


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This book will give the readers a inside look of my personal battle with being a Christian all while battling Depression and constant suicidal thoughts which the enemy plagued my mind with on a daily basis and how I eventually overcame it through much Faith and Prayer.




The Suicidal Christian: The Battle is the mind


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The Battle is the Mind: The Suicidal Christian is an intimate account of the personal battle between the mental and the spiritual. The spirit of depression has no favor amongst men and it is often looked upon as a flaw within the human existence. As a Christian, there is an expectancy to walk, speak, work, and live our everyday lives in overwhelming joy; but the Lord explained that he didn’t promise the road to be easy; he promised it to be worth it. The suicidal Christian was written under the thumb of depression, in the presence of the Holy Ghost, and in the protection of the Lord of hosts. This outpouring of emotional influx goes deep into descriptive explanation of how a saved, sanctified, and filled with the Holy Ghost Christian may be influenced by the spirit of depression while at the same time being covered by the blood of Jesus. Depression is a battle that we all walk the fine lines of, but I hope with my story, it won’t be left a scar that we are ashamed to reveal.