Just Want to Die


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Are you having suicidal thoughts and feelings? Perhaps you are convinced that life is not worth living. Your life seems hopeless, like a black hole with all love, hope, and joy sucked out. David Powlison describes the various reasons you might be feeling hopeless and explains that God is not surprised or put off by your hopeless feelings. ...




Hello I Want to Die Please Fix Me


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An engrossing memoir-meets-investigative report that takes a fresh, frank look at how we treat depression. Depression is a havoc-wreaking illness that masquerades as personal failing and hijacks your life. After a major suicide attempt in her early twenties, Anna Mehler Paperny resolved to put her reporter’s skills to use to get to know her enemy, setting off on a journey to understand her condition, the dizzying array of medical treatments on offer, and a medical profession in search of answers. Charting the way depression wrecks so many lives, she maps competing schools of therapy, pharmacology, cutting-edge medicine, the pill-popping pitfalls of long-term treatment, the glaring unknowns and the institutional shortcomings that both patients and practitioners are up against. She interviews leading medical experts across the US and Canada, from psychiatrists to neurologists, brain-mapping pioneers to family practitioners, and others dabbling in strange hypotheses—and shares compassionate conversations with fellow sufferers. Hello I Want to Die Please Fix Me tracks Anna’s quest for knowledge and her desire to get well. Impeccably reported, it is a profoundly compelling story about the human spirit and the myriad ways we treat (and fail to treat) the disease that accounts for more years swallowed up by disability than any other in the world. If you or someone you know is struggling with suicidal thoughts, help is available. Contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 800-273-8255.




I Love Jesus, But I Want to Die


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A compassionate, shame-free guide for your darkest days “A one-of-a-kind book . . . to read for yourself or give to a struggling friend or loved one without the fear that depression and suicidal thoughts will be minimized, medicalized or over-spiritualized.”—Kay Warren, cofounder of Saddleback Church What happens when loving Jesus doesn’t cure you of depression, anxiety, or suicidal thoughts? You might be crushed by shame over your mental illness, only to be told by well-meaning Christians to “choose joy” and “pray more.” So you beg God to take away the pain, but nothing eases the ache inside. As darkness lingers and color drains from your world, you’re left wondering if God has abandoned you. You just want a way out. But there’s hope. In I Love Jesus, But I Want to Die, Sarah J. Robinson offers a healthy, practical, and shame-free guide for Christians struggling with mental illness. With unflinching honesty, Sarah shares her story of battling depression and fighting to stay alive despite toxic theology that made her afraid to seek help outside the church. Pairing her own story with scriptural insights, mental health research, and simple practices, Sarah helps you reconnect with the God who is present in our deepest anguish and discover that you are worth everything it takes to get better. Beautifully written and full of hard-won wisdom, I Love Jesus, But I Want to Die offers a path toward a rich, hope-filled life in Christ, even when healing doesn’t look like what you expect.




I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki


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_______________ THE PHENOMENAL KOREAN BESTSELLER TRANSLATED BY INTERNATIONAL BOOKER SHORTLISTEE ANTON HUR 'Will strike a chord with anyone who feels that their public life is at odds with how they really feel inside.' - Red PSYCHIATRIST: So how can I help you? ME: I don't know, I'm – what's the word – depressed? Do I have to go into detail? Baek Sehee is a successful young social media director at a publishing house when she begins seeing a psychiatrist about her – what to call it? – depression? She feels persistently low, anxious, endlessly self-doubting, but also highly judgemental of others. She hides her feelings well at work and with friends; adept at performing the calmness, even ease, her lifestyle demands. The effort is exhausting, overwhelming, and keeps her from forming deep relationships. This can't be normal. But if she's so hopeless, why can she always summon a desire for her favourite street food, the hot, spicy rice cake, tteokbokki? Is this just what life is like? Recording her dialogues with her psychiatrist over a 12-week period, Baek begins to disentangle the feedback loops, knee-jerk reactions and harmful behaviours that keep her locked in a cycle of self-abuse. Part memoir, part self-help book, I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki is a book to keep close and to reach for in times of darkness.




Suicide


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This is a frank, compassionate book written to those who contemplate suicide as a way out of their situations. The author issues an invitation to life, helping people accept the imperfections of their lives, and opening eyes to the possibilities of love.




I Hate Myself and Want to Die


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For Anna Young, stabbing at her veins with a needle was a normal part of life. Its what she had wanted since she learned in seventh grade that her idols were heroin addicts. She strived to become a junkie and was successful. In I Hate Myself and Want to Die, Young recounts her struggles with drugs, suicide, and bipolar disorder. Honest and self-disclosing, Young narrates the intimate details of her drug use and the path to addiction, her time spent in jail and detox, the ravages of withdrawal, her efforts to rehabilitate, her unsuccessful attempts to commit suicide, and her diagnosis with bipolar disorder. This memoir provides a behind-the-scenes and firsthand look at the trials of drug addiction, its wide-reaching effects, and the very real challenge of recovery. I walk into my new cell; it is lockdown after lunch I lay my head down to ease my headache from the bright lights. I just sit in my bed and shake, sweat, and groan. Once in a while I drift off to sleep. I dream about Elle and getting high, and then I am startled awake. I stare at the ceiling looking for a spot to hang myself.




The Memory of Light


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This beautiful novel from the author of Marcelo in the Real World about life after a suicide attempt is perfect for fans of It's Kind of a Funny Story and Thirteen Reasons Why. When Vicky Cruz wakes up in the Lakeview Hospital Mental Disorders ward, she knows one thing: After her suicide attempt, she shouldn't be alive. But then she meets Mona, the live wire; Gabriel, the saint; E.M., always angry; and Dr. Desai, a quiet force. With stories and honesty, kindness and hard work, they push her to reconsider her life before Lakeview, and offer her an acceptance she's never had.But Vicky's newfound peace is as fragile as the roses that grow around the hospital. And when a crisis forces the group to split up, sending Vicky back to the life that drove her to suicide, she must try to find her own courage and strength. She may not have them. She doesn't know.Inspired in part by the author's own experience with depression, The Memory of Light is the rare young adult novel that focuses not on the events leading up to a suicide attempt, but the recovery from one -- about living when life doesn't seem worth it, and how we go on anyway.




I Don't Want to Die Poor


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One of NPR’s Best Books of 2020 One of Time’s 100 Must-Read Books of 2020 From the New York Times bestselling author of I Can’t Date Jesus, which Vogue called “a piece of personal and cultural storytelling that is as fun as it is illuminating,” comes a wry and insightful essay collection that explores the financial and emotional cost of chasing your dreams. Ever since Oprah Winfrey told the 2007 graduating class of Howard University, “Don’t be afraid,” Michael Arceneaux has been scared to death. You should never do the opposite of what Oprah instructs you to do, but when you don’t have her pocket change, how can you not be terrified of the consequences of pursuing your dreams? Michael has never shied away from discussing his struggles with debt, but in I Don’t Want to Die Poor, he reveals the extent to which it has an impact on every facet of his life—how he dates; how he seeks medical care (or in some cases, is unable to); how he wrestles with the question of whether or not he should have chosen a more financially secure path; and finally, how he has dealt with his “dream” turning into an ongoing nightmare as he realizes one bad decision could unravel all that he’s earned. You know, actual “economic anxiety.” I Don’t Want to Die Poor is an unforgettable and relatable examination about what it’s like leading a life that often feels out of your control. But in Michael’s voice that’s “as joyful as he is shrewd” (BuzzFeed), these razor-sharp essays will still manage to make you laugh and remind you that you’re not alone in this often intimidating journey.




How to Live When You Want to Die


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n How to Live When You Want to Die, LeAnn Hull opens up about the heartbreaking experience of losing a child to suicide and the subsequent discovery of a purpose-driven conviction to spread love, inspiration and encouragement in the midst of her grief. Her message strikes a welcome chord with anyone struggling through loss or trauma of any nature.Hull lost her 16-year-old son to suicide in 2012. Andy was a great student, a star pitcher scouted by major league baseball teams, on his way to becoming an Eagle Scout, and was dearly loved by his friends. Andy's suicide sent a piercing thunderbolt through the hearts of many thousands of people-his family, his friends and his community. LeAnn Hull is a dear and trusted friend with whom I have shared a tremendous amount of my grief journey. Her wit, honesty and down-to-earth wisdom have helped many members of Helping Parents Heal move forward. LeAnn has not only survived the passing of her beautiful son Andy; she has also created an impressive nonprofit, Andy Hull's Sunshine Foundation, that honors his legacy. She has dedicated her life to saving lives of others. LeAnn now spends much of her time traveling throughout the country, delivering her uplifting 'You Matter' message to businesses, schools and military bases. Among many other things, the foundation is instrumental in gifting children with a love of books through its Sunshine Readers program. LeAnn's book, How to Live When You Want to Die, is a roadmap - for those who are suffering from the passing of a loved one - for embarking on their own journey of healing and hope. LeAnn shows, through personal life experience, that we can both survive the passing of a beloved child and lead a purposeful and joyful life once again. Elizabeth Boisson, President and Co-Founder of Helping Parents HealAnyone who assumes this book would be depressing to read will find themselves surprisingly uplifted. LeAnn Hull gently takes readers through the nuanced, yet richly rewarding, layers of her healing journey after the physical death of her beautiful son Andy. If you have ever grieved, or if you are grieving now, please read this book as soon as possible. It will help you recognize the many gifts brought about by your own relationships with loved ones, even in death. You will also be able to see, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that none of your loved ones beyond the veil are ever really "lost." Susanne J. Wilson, MA, author of Soul Smart: What the Dead Teach Us About Spirit Communication




I Hate Myself and Want to Die


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"Let the shiny happy people have their love songs because we all know it's the sad songs that say so much. With a heavy heart and a tear in his beer, Tom Reynolds examines songs that have crushed our spirits over the years. He listened to 200 versions of "Send in the Clowns". He listened to everything the Cure ever recorded. He listened to countless tales of shipwrecks, plane wrecks and emotional train wrecks. Songs of Xmas so woeful that they'd make Santa Claus reach for the Prozac. There's a real difference between a sad song and a depressing one. For the record, when you're feeling melancholy, you'll gravitate towards a sad song that will give you comfort; a depressing song is one that comes out of the blue and, no matter what mood you're in, it ruins your day! From the "she-hates-me-so-I-hate-her rants (like Joy Division s "Love Will Tear Us Apart ) to songs that try to be really profound and touching but really suck (like "Don't Cry Out Loud" by Melissa Manchester), as well as those horrifying remakes of already depressing songs - what you just heard - "All By Myself" by Celine Dion The list is long and painful. This is a book to appeal to the music critic in all of us. I