Book Description

An autobiography, written by Lucy Jayne about her life and secretly crossdressing behind closed doors and wishing for a soul mate to share it with and who'd understand what it was like to have a kinky sexual addiction. This book is a true account of my life and hiding my secret crossdressing for sexual pleasure. I write about my life and how I coped with the emotions of being a closet crossdresser as a teenager and how I hid it away from all my friends and family and how I coped with it going into adult life. I started dressing up as a girl, in private when I was around 15 years old and many years later, still dressing up in sexy underwear, dresses and high heels. By anyone's' standards, I was a normal boy into normal male things, and as an adult male, I'm still into male and macho activities, but still like to don a tight dress and stiletto heels at the weekend. I grew up in a family with my parents and three sisters and lead a regular life. My father worked away a lot and I was around females most of the time. I tell my true-life story of the ups and downs of having a kinky cross dressing secret and how I managed to 'borrow' women's clothes and makeup. I even had some unexpected help along the way which I wasn't prepared for! Dressing up for me, was a sexual type of escapism and a go-to place where Lucy could switch off from the outside world. I found it very exciting and very sexual the feeling of tight underwear around my torso and high heels hugging my feet. I still loved being close with a woman and loved them to be as feminine as possible, but sometimes I thought if they wouldn't dress up then I'd do it myself. I would dress up as sexy as I could and learned how to put makeup on, and I would take photos and video myself masturbating. I loved wearing satin basques with stockings and the highest heels possible. As hard as it was, I kept my crossdressing a secret from my wife at the time, and I always thought I could never tell anyone about my feminine side. After leaving married life behind and playing the field, I had a few short term relationships and a lot of sexual fun, but never felt totally satisfied. That's when things changed for the better, I met Emma. I never imagined in a million years that I could meet someone who would understand the life of a crossdresser. Not only understanding, but actually being involved, both physically and emotionally, and taking an active part in my pastime with me. Even though I have dressed up for quite a long time, I never had any intentions or wanted to be a woman of any sorts. I was very happy as a male and loved my having a kinky secret. I wasn't turned on by males and strangely enough, I didn't even like seeing images of other crossdressers either until I got a bit older, and understood that everyone's doing it for their own happiness. Dressing up as a woman, for me, was switching off from the responsibilities and stresses of everyday life, even if it was for a couple of hours, and some sexual relief of course. This exciting and raunchy self-penned and self-published true account of being a crossdresser is written in a very matter of fact style. It contains very descriptive details and activities of a sexual nature and goes into some very graphic details of my sexual experiences. Some I'm proud of and others I'm not but either way, 'guaranteed' to make you hot under the collar and other places too! Hopefully, this book will also act as some kind of a guide to other crossdressers or transvestites who are going through or have been through a range of emotions from being on an all-time high to fighting with their inner demons. It might just help the reader to accept what they do behind closed doors, is okay and it might be more normal than most people think. Who knows they might even find the courage to reveal their secret to a partner or find someone who will accept them for who they are.