Book Description

Calvin Baxter was living his dream. Annie was the perfect wife, and Taylor was his beautiful infant daughter. He loved his job as the pastor of a thriving community church in Archdale, a typical small North Carolina town where no secrets were ever kept. It didn't matter because Cal and Annie had no secrets to keep. Until on a warm Spring afternoon when Annie and Taylor died in a tragic accident. It was Cal's fault. How could a loving God allow such a tragedy to happen? Relentless anger festered into deep resentment. Self-loathing eventually drove Cal to the edge of suicide, but he never could muster the courage to end it all. Cal declared a ruthless, secret war that raged for ten grueling years. The terrible battles gradually destroyed his faith. It was too late when his congregation discovered their pastor harbored a dark secret that would force Tabernacle Baptist Church to close its doors forever. On the Sunday Cal preached his final sermon, he announced he was stepping away from the ministry. He had no idea what to do with the rest of his life, or where to do it. All that mattered, it had to be far away from Archdale. Cal drove out of town in a very special vehicle named for Annie. He had to make one final stop, to visit Gabby, his mother-in-law, who had long since forgiven Cal for Annie's and Taylor's deaths. Even though Gabby knew it was a waste of time, she encouraged Cal to forgive himself. When they hugged good-bye both Cal and Gabby were certain they would never see each other again. Cal had no destination in mind as he turned south on Highway 109, toward a sparsely settled section of the state. Ahead were clear skies, fresh air and winding country roads. There were no more sermons to prepare. No more prayer requests he doubted would even be heard, let alone answered. He had left behind God, religion and all false pretense of belief. Confident he had begun a brand new chapter in his life, Cal was about to discover he had actually entered a challenging odyssey that would rock him to his very core. He may have lost his faith, but Evil wasn't about to cut him any slack. Cal only thought he had lost it all, until he actually lost it all. As his unexpected journey unfolds, Cal is forced to accept that the man he used to be no longer exists. He is still inside the same body, but is a man he must learn to accept and become. As Cal struggles with his new identity, he may have stepped on the path that returns him to the Faith he abandoned in Archdale.