Book Description

Alan's true story picks up after his parole from Trenton State Prison where he served 27 months of a 3 to 5 year sentence for possession and sale of drugs. He thought he had his drug addiction problems beaten. He felt that alcohol without drugs would provide him the relief that he needed from his anxiety and depression. He started becoming more and more reliant on alcohol as the days passed. His social anxiety was so great that he could not participate in conversations in a group context. His alcoholic life was a whirlwind of brief sexual encounters and drinking at bars in Greenwich Village. His sexual identity was non-existent. He had no sexual preference of a female over a male or vice-versa. Alan was just getting started on his academic career as a free man. He had taken his first 4 college courses in prison and was determined to earn at least a bachelor's degree. In no time at all he was consuming alcohol before every social gathering whether it was at home, at work or on the university campus. Alan appeared aloof to many acquaintances, but his quiet nature was due to his intense anxiety levels and sporadic depression. The years advance and Alan chronicles the huge impact alcoholism has on his life and his urgent attempts to work towards solutions to his inner turmoil. As his alcoholism progresses, he gets closer and closer to losing everything he's worked and strived for. His personal relationships are falling apart. His work on the job is suffering and his relationships with co-workers are becoming stressed. He needs a solution and he needs it now.