I Love Jesus, But I Want to Die


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A compassionate, shame-free guide for your darkest days “A one-of-a-kind book . . . to read for yourself or give to a struggling friend or loved one without the fear that depression and suicidal thoughts will be minimized, medicalized or over-spiritualized.”—Kay Warren, cofounder of Saddleback Church What happens when loving Jesus doesn’t cure you of depression, anxiety, or suicidal thoughts? You might be crushed by shame over your mental illness, only to be told by well-meaning Christians to “choose joy” and “pray more.” So you beg God to take away the pain, but nothing eases the ache inside. As darkness lingers and color drains from your world, you’re left wondering if God has abandoned you. You just want a way out. But there’s hope. In I Love Jesus, But I Want to Die, Sarah J. Robinson offers a healthy, practical, and shame-free guide for Christians struggling with mental illness. With unflinching honesty, Sarah shares her story of battling depression and fighting to stay alive despite toxic theology that made her afraid to seek help outside the church. Pairing her own story with scriptural insights, mental health research, and simple practices, Sarah helps you reconnect with the God who is present in our deepest anguish and discover that you are worth everything it takes to get better. Beautifully written and full of hard-won wisdom, I Love Jesus, But I Want to Die offers a path toward a rich, hope-filled life in Christ, even when healing doesn’t look like what you expect.




Settling the Score -- Part 3: The Cage (straight to gay forced chastity MM erotica)


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A straight stud is starting to break… Wade still struts around school in his varsity jacket like he’s the king of the world. Laughing it up with his jock buddies. Making out with his cheerleader girlfriend. Bullying the “queers”. But behind the eyes he’s starting to get desperate. Wade hasn’t had sex in a week. Any kind of sex. Not since I put his manhood under lock and key. I wonder how much longer he can take it. Another day? Two? Pretty soon the frustration will be too much, and he’ll do anything I want just to get some release. There’s only one problem: It turns out that I’m not the only one who has Wade in training. And somebody else wants to break him first. •First time gay BDSM high school jock slave teen chastity MM sex story erotica•




The Spirit Catches You and You Fall Down


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Winner of the National Book Critics Circle Award for Nonfiction, this brilliantly reported and beautifully crafted book explores the clash between a medical center in California and a Laotian refugee family over their care of a child.




A Deadly Education


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NEW YORK TIMES BESTSELLER • From the author of Uprooted and Spinning Silver comes the first book of the Scholomance trilogy, the story of an unwilling dark sorceress who is destined to rewrite the rules of magic. FINALIST FOR THE LODESTAR AWARD • “The dark school of magic I’ve been waiting for.”—Katherine Arden, author of the Winternight Trilogy I decided that Orion Lake needed to die after the second time he saved my life. Everyone loves Orion Lake. Everyone else, that is. Far as I’m concerned, he can keep his flashy combat magic to himself. I’m not joining his pack of adoring fans. I don’t need help surviving the Scholomance, even if they do. Forget the hordes of monsters and cursed artifacts, I’m probably the most dangerous thing in the place. Just give me a chance and I’ll level mountains and kill untold millions, make myself the dark queen of the world. At least, that’s what the world expects. Most of the other students in here would be delighted if Orion killed me like one more evil thing that’s crawled out of the drains. Sometimes I think they want me to turn into the evil witch they assume I am. The school certainly does. But the Scholomance isn’t getting what it wants from me. And neither is Orion Lake. I may not be anyone’s idea of the shining hero, but I’m going to make it out of this place alive, and I’m not going to slaughter thousands to do it, either. Although I’m giving serious consideration to just one. With flawless mastery, Naomi Novik creates a school bursting with magic like you’ve never seen before, and a heroine for the ages—a character so sharply realized and so richly nuanced that she will live on in hearts and minds for generations to come. The magic of the Scholomance trilogy continues in The Last Graduate “The can’t-miss fantasy of fall 2020, a brutal coming-of-power story steeped in the aesthetics of dark academia. . . . A Deadly Education will cement Naomi Novik’s place as one of the greatest and most versatile fantasy writers of our time.”—BookPage (starred review) “A must-read . . . Novik puts a refreshingly dark, adult spin on the magical boarding school. . . . Readers will delight in the push-and-pull of El and Orion’s relationship, the fantastically detailed world, the clever magic system, and the matter-of-fact diversity of the student body.”—Publishers Weekly (starred review)




How Learning Works


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Praise for How Learning Works "How Learning Works is the perfect title for this excellent book. Drawing upon new research in psychology, education, and cognitive science, the authors have demystified a complex topic into clear explanations of seven powerful learning principles. Full of great ideas and practical suggestions, all based on solid research evidence, this book is essential reading for instructors at all levels who wish to improve their students' learning." —Barbara Gross Davis, assistant vice chancellor for educational development, University of California, Berkeley, and author, Tools for Teaching "This book is a must-read for every instructor, new or experienced. Although I have been teaching for almost thirty years, as I read this book I found myself resonating with many of its ideas, and I discovered new ways of thinking about teaching." —Eugenia T. Paulus, professor of chemistry, North Hennepin Community College, and 2008 U.S. Community Colleges Professor of the Year from The Carnegie Foundation for the Advancement of Teaching and the Council for Advancement and Support of Education "Thank you Carnegie Mellon for making accessible what has previously been inaccessible to those of us who are not learning scientists. Your focus on the essence of learning combined with concrete examples of the daily challenges of teaching and clear tactical strategies for faculty to consider is a welcome work. I will recommend this book to all my colleagues." —Catherine M. Casserly, senior partner, The Carnegie Foundation for the Advancement of Teaching "As you read about each of the seven basic learning principles in this book, you will find advice that is grounded in learning theory, based on research evidence, relevant to college teaching, and easy to understand. The authors have extensive knowledge and experience in applying the science of learning to college teaching, and they graciously share it with you in this organized and readable book." —From the Foreword by Richard E. Mayer, professor of psychology, University of California, Santa Barbara; coauthor, e-Learning and the Science of Instruction; and author, Multimedia Learning




Love You Wild


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Shattered. That's the best way to describe Claire Thompson after the ultimate betrayal. When her long-term boyfriend cheats on her, Claire decides she's done with men. Maybe forever. Healing the pieces of her broken heart seems like too impossible a task. Rumor has it the best way to get over someone is to get under someone new, but a rebound is the last thing she wants or needs, and she's definitely not letting her guard down for anyone, especially not for charming, sexy-as-sin, multi-millionaire playboy Avery Beck. Avery Beck, womanizer extraordinaire, prefers his women with no strings attached. Until he sets his eyes on Claire. As fiery and feisty as her hair, with stubbornness and tenacity to match, he's sure he's never worked harder for anything. Avery is determined to tear her walls down one piercing gaze, one lingering touch, one sweeping kiss at a time. He's never given up before, and he doesn't plan on starting now. Will Avery's wild heart finally be tamed? Or will this be the one time the relentless millionaire doesn't get what he wants?




The Advocate


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The Advocate is a lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgender (LGBT) monthly newsmagazine. Established in 1967, it is the oldest continuing LGBT publication in the United States.




Disciplining the Jock (First Time Gay Student/Teacher Discipline and Humiliation Erotica)


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Reader Advisory: This story is for mature audiences only and features intensely erotic situations, taboo teacher/student relations, bdsm play, discipline, spanking, humiliation, submissiveness and dominance. All characters are 18 or older. Peter Stanton has always found ways of using his good looks and athletic talents to get ahead, and when he arrives in college it doesn't look like that's going to have to change. But his easy ride runs out when his professor Alex Whitner notices him flirting with a female classmate only to copy her course work. The handsome professor decides it's time to teach Peter a little personal responsibility and maybe show the testosterone charged young man just what someone who actually knows how to handle him looks like. Excerpt: "You know, Professor," I begin, "I understand why you have me cleaning the classroom. I'm really learning a lesson. But as for talking to Jessie, I really don't understand why that's so necessary. How do you know I don't like her?" I shrug my shoulders. "That's the sort of thing I get to decide for myself, isn't it? I'm not just a child you get to push around like that." I wince slightly as I hear the last words come out of my mouth. That may have been taking it too far, but it was where the conversation was headed anyways. "That's a very interesting perspective, Peter," he says in a neutral voice. "But surely if you cared about her you wouldn't be manipulating her into giving you her work when she clearly didn't want to." I roll my eyes in dismissal. "Professor," I say, "is it really that simple? Sometimes you need something from someone, that's all. It doesn't hurt her any if she helps me out, just like it doesn't hurt you any if you forget this whole thing ever happened." I put a little emphasis on the "if". I'm not obvious, I think, but I do it just enough that he'll interpret the sentence the way I mean it. He sits back and considers me for a long moment, taking me in - all of me. I find myself suddenly a little bit self-conscious but try to shake the momentary weakness out of my head. "What are you doing, Peter?" he asks. "Why do you think it's appropriate to act this way?" I try to meet his gaze, but I'm finding it increasingly difficult. "Like what, Professor?" "You – always trying to push people around to get what you want. Do you think I'm some kid who'll go weak-kneed if you flex your muscles?" "What are you talking about, Professor?" I ask as innocently as I can, mentally backpedaling as my heart begins to hammer. He seems angry. It's suddenly obvious to both of us that I don't have the courage to go through with my implied threat. "What am I talking about?" He asks incredulously. "No, enough. I've wasted too much time trying to teach you like an adult and give you the benefit of the doubt. I can see now that I was wrong from the beginning." He stands up, angry and strong and an inch or two taller than me as he looks down at me. He grabs me by my arm and pulls me to face him. "Look at yourself," he says. "Do you think this is an acceptable way to behave? How far in life do you think this sort of stunt will take you?" I look up at him, unable to speak. There isn't anything to say. But there's something about the way he's looking at me, almost like he knows he's supposed to be angry but he's responding in a different way instead – almost like he's noticing me the way I noticed him along the pathway this morning. I draw in a faltering breath. Notice: This title includes themes and passages that have been adapted from Jessica Whitethread's Caught By My Professor with full consent of the original author.




Best Life


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Best Life magazine empowers men to continually improve their physical, emotional and financial well-being to better enjoy the most rewarding years of their life.